The first day of March is here and it's actually weighing a little heavy on me. The UK is currently covered in a blanket of snow and it's still falling thick and fast. Don't get me wrong, it's beautiful but it's freezing and just a bit of an inconvenience when you've got things to be getting on with. Just as it felt like Spring was in the air Mother Nature has been as unpredictable as ever and seems to have reversed the seasons! I was just getting all hyped up for more sunshine and warmer weather but I guess it's back to winter coats and boots.
Aside from the weather, today is officially the start of the last month of my twenties. That's right... the big three-oh is on the horizon and I'm not entirely looking forward to it. I'm trying not to be too focused on it or feel too negative about it but I can definitely feel it looming.
I am determined to try to embrace it as much as I can and not let it scare me too much. I don't think it's necessarily the number that makes me nervous - I think it's just the preconceived pressures of the milestone bearing down and how they cause you to become seriously self-critical. It's all self-inflicted of course, but as I move through the last few weeks of my twenties I find myself making endless comparisons between the expectations of my younger self and my life currently - 'I haven't achieved that yet' or 'I wanted to be there at that age'... I think most of these judgements stem from the social standard that your twenties are the best years of your life - but actually, when I think about it more rationally, they probably won't be. Sure, you are wild and carefree, but I think hindsight has highlighted that my laid back approach to life was really misdirection.
They say you shouldn't have regrets but I definitely made a lot of mistakes when I was younger. I am glad I did though because I have definitely learnt from them. Now I am older I feel more mature and focused and I am able to celebrate the things I have achieved. I feel like thirty will be a new chapter. Although I will obviously be sad to say goodbye to my twenties, I think I am ready to embrace the next decade. Life begins at 30 right?!